Nocturne in E-flat Op. 9 // Frédéric Chopin
one of my most favorite songs in the world :)
i think i might start a new habit of saying “I love you” at the end of every sentence
you know like “where are you?, i love you”
“pass the sauce, i love you”
“what the fuck, i love you”
“what time is it? i love you”
So I had the most perfect day yesterday! I had a sudden longing to mingle with nature (which isn’t easy cause jakarta has no wilderness left) so I contacted my friend and surprisingly enough he wanted to go too! And all my friends were up early, a very rare feat. So the four of us drove up to the mountains and smoked a joint on the trail and smoked another in the rain, sitting on the rocks beneath a waterfall (under an umbrella) then we went swimming in the waterfall. I stood directed beneath the waterfall and felt it cleanse me internally. I felt my chakras open up before the power of the rushing water and purify within me. I felt like a lot of pollution was exalted out of me and into the stream flowing along with the river. Twas such a magical experience. When I arrived home I watched across the universe and fell asleep, I remember when I was really drowsy I told myself “please wake up in time to go to aztec.” Aztec is where me and my friends hang. I awoke at midnight and my friends were heading there and one of them picked me up. I had a beautiful time there, something that hasn’t happened in a while due to my anxieties. I woke up with the best feeling in my heart and I was so glad I acted upon my impulse and decided to go to the mountain :)
You know what kills you and makes you feel all rotten in side?
Not following your heart.
Don’t believe me?
How does it feels after you’ve done something you know is wrong?
Intrinsically you feel burdened, guilty.
Negative thoughts clamor around your head and they haunt you
Need another example?
How do you feel when you ponder about achievements you wish you’ve achieved?
Surely not fulfillment, joy and gratitude.
It’s because of your inaction
You desire and yet you do not act
It’s not just about not getting the things you want
It would be much better to set down your wishes
But you can’t now can you?
And yet you take no steps in materializing them
So basically the idea is
Do what is right
Do what you want
Stop intrinsic procrastination
Stop ignoring your morals
And live in peace with your Self
Sometimes you pick up little pebbles of fear and forget to put them down again. As soon as you realize how burdened you are you see that your little pebble have grown into a big mountain right in your pockets. Go to the wilderness and take a seat, take each pebble and thank it, then set it down and continue on again until you have none left :)